Thanks Coleen, JBiss, and everyone else for the kind words.
Now for something a bit different. I'm a fairly positive guy, yet I continually learn, or am reminded actually, that I think the worst of myself and am a big chicken when it comes to women. I don't know why I'm like that, and I certainly know that I don't want to be like that, yet I am. Today for instance there was this amazing woman at the gym, and yeah I'm only talking about looks, but she was the exact body type I go gaga over. I noticed she didn't have a ring and I figured I'd give it a go and ask her out/at least talk to her, yet when it came time I chickened out. Once again all these thoughts flooded my brain, the same thoughts as usual, "A woman like that would never go out with you, who are you fooling thinking you could score someone that looks like that!"
I know it all comes down to self-esteem and all that, but I am actually fairly confident in myself, until it comes time to actually ask a woman out, then I'm nothing but self-doubt and negativity. I've always been that way to, and I know I need to change the way I think about and view myself when it comes to woman, but how to do that, how to do that.