I apologize if I came off as rude on this site.
I am going through difficult time in finding a job. I went back to school for something more practical and I still can't get the kind of paying job I want. I apply but it feels useless. Nothing seems to land. Every interview feels like a slap in the face. I have to push recruiters to respond to me. I feel like a constant failure. And it looks like if I get a job, I will have to drive an hour (at least!) across the city just to clock in. Debt is welling up. I either eat my feelings or dig deep into vices which, in this case, is writing on here or watching another movie. The worst part is just not feeling anything. I feel like I am sleep walking through life. I have so much intellect and so much of myself to give. I hate that I have to fight tooth and nail just to get the bare minimum, if that. I'm worn out. I'll probably go running after writing this. Try to clear my head. It's not good to spend too much time online. I know that at least.
Anyway, thank you for hearing me out. I'm sorry for lashing out a bit on here.